Standing

Today I stood for one hour in a line. A line to withdraw money. Because just when I was fourth to get money, the machine goes offline. Took 20-30 minutes to go back up, but since I already waited 20-30 minutes I stayed in line.

My feet still hurt up to now. From work I picked up my mom from Shangri-la Mall and while on my way, the song Meant To Live played on NU 107.5 around 6:45 pm?

It made me remember...

That we are all made to live something more. But like in my previous blog we sometimes (well most of the time) we get lost while getting to that place better. I guess I'm still in that rough road. I remember i received a text once, several of them actually form different people. Something about you being a rock. That God is giving you these challenges, they are rough for sure, lots of pressure and things to go through. So that in the end you turn out to be a diamond or a ruby - a gem or an emerald....

I just hope God makes me a diamond, they are the hardest, most expensive, and shiniest.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.

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I made some 3D Perspectives

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Absolutely Zero

Absolutely Zero is how I feel now. Energy: Zero. Inspiration: Zero. Anything else: Zero.
There are times in life when you feel like you have absolutely zero. The funny thing is your not dirt poor. Your not alone. Your not hated, an outcast, or loathed. Neither are you being looked for, indicted, or searched by authorities.

Your just not needed. Not wanted. You've drown in the sea of work, daily routine, and life. You can be blamed and forgotten the next day. They don't even ask for repayment because your not needed. You might want to apologize but they don't need it, won't hear it, will just ignore it.

You've lost hope but you can't die. Its against your inner will, a small flicker of hope inside that can't be destroyed. Sometimes you think why its there. You think God is all benevolent, there must be a reason why that sun in you can't burn out.

Its a torture everyday that passes. To be the same person you don't want to be everyday, every single day of your existence. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and you count the days. And its pathetic. All this is pathetic. Sometimes you wanna run away but to where and for what? Who would care. You'll just get tired. It'll be a nuisance to yourself. You don't run because your just too tired. Too tired mentally, physically and emotionally. Nothing gives you inspiration anymore.

Nobody is dependable, reliable to you. Nothing makes you happy. Even those moments, those people who you'd run to. Cherish to be with, it becomes stale because they're sick of you. Tired of you. Your a baggage. You need to be thrown away. They think you've lost it. And you become paranoid.

Nobody remembers you. Nothing holds you. Nothing keeps you. Nobody remembers you put water in the shampoo. Nobody remembers you fix their things, keep them orderly. Nobody remembers you tuck them in a blanket. Nobody remembers that you care.

You wish you can just cut all ties. Start over. Nothing to worry about. Nothing to do. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to think about, to worry about. no expectations, no discriminations. Nothing.

You think hard and then. Everythings gone. You wake up from this dream and everythings normal again. You hate it because it's not a dream. You just came to the realization that logically self-pity won't help you forget the dream. Remove it from your system.

Who wants a life like this? Its for sale. Pay no more than Absolutely Zero.

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when mood swings.

It's funny how things work out, The ones we need don't know we're there, Things cant be perfect all the time that i know, sometimes we just have to let some things go.

I wake up and think dreams are real, I sleep so I don't have to feel, the truth that you can never be the one person that won't ever forget me.

Waiting for the rain to stop, Destination's beautiful. Seems that I'm still Waiting for the sun. Someday will come back to us.

If you're willing, let it go

Why won't you just let this be your sun?

i can speak when i want to and pour my voice til it burns through the core of my own throat

listen im fine now, listen im fine now, listen im fine now
i dont want to talk right now, thank you for your concern

Once more I'll say goodbye to you Things happen, but we don't really know why If it's supposed to be like this...

All these things I hate revolve around Me!

I wonder if you're listening. . .

Can I just be something somewhere in your room that you won't notice
You’re everything to me. Sometimes I run, but I'm not afraid. Why must you bring up all the mistakes I've made?

Decisions, make decisions for your fate. Your choice is the chance that you have to take.

She said, 'Alright, alright slow down' Oh no, oh no cause I regret everything that I said

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you? Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me...

Everything we had
everything we had
everything we had
everything we had is no longer there






















everything we had.

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Its June 1 People

16 days from now, students will be back to school. Many will be like my cousin who will be going to college for the first time. Exciting times it is, and how I wish I could drop my job, ask my mom to enroll me in some exotic diploma course like culinary arts or something and then I'll be as excited as those students 16 days from now.

What I expect is that 16 days from now I'd still be at work. Hopefully work will be nice to me.
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I saw on this other blog the other day about places that person wanted to go so I guess I'll have the same list here. Plus I'll make it different and I'll put a reason why! See I'm so unique.

My Top 10 in Europe (sorry I couldn't squeeze it all so by region :D )

1. Rome, Italy (Catholic Faith, Architecture)
2. Athens, Greece (Antiquity, Architecture)
3. Berlin, Germany (History, Personal Affinity towards Germany)
4. Paris, France (History, Architecture)
5. St. Petersburg, Russia (History, Architecture)
6. Prague, Czech Republic (Crystals, People, Catholic Faith)
7. London, UK (Center of the Biritish Empire!)
8. Warsaw, Poland (Catholic Faith, History, Architecture)
9. Madrid, Spain (Seatof the former Spanish Empire!!!!! History)
10. Benelux (hahaha I cheated! Yes those three countires at once, the so called low lands? Spanish Netherlands at an old time)

So far I have gone to ZERO places in this list.

My Top 10 in Asia (Where Odin resides according to the Icelandic people)

1. Jerusalem, Israel (yes It's Israeli's and not anyone elses ok, its my list! Catholic Faith)
2. Giza, Egypt (Pyramids!)
3. Beijing, China (Great Wall, History, Architecture!)
4. Tokyo, Japan (YIPEEEE Technology! History!)
5. Istanbul, Turkey (old Constantinople? or was it Ankara; History)
6. India (History, Architecture)
7. Lebanon (beautiful people!)
8. Thailand (History, Architecture)
9. Singapore-Hongkong (financial center)
10. Seoul, South Korea (Personal, actually I'm not fan, its just something else)

Oh sadly I've only been to 3 and 9. 8/10 to go.

My Top 10 in North America

1. Washington D.C., New York, L.A., USA ( yehey )
2. Mexico City, Mexico (History, Architecture)
3. Toronto, Canada (TENNIS!)
4. uh oh.... not enough countries I want to go i THINK.

Been to number 1.

My Top 10 in Oceania

1. Melbourne, Australia (TENNIS!!!!!!)
2. uh oh.... thats it

haven't been anywhere on this list

My Top 10 in South America

1. Rio de Janerio, Brasil (BRASIL!!!!!)
2. Bogota, Colombia (My tita's home country! Also center of Gran Colombia)
3. Buenos Aires, Argentina (Eva Peron? They're like europeans here)
4. Cayenne, France (Imagine they have the size of lets say Mindanao in S. America? and the only non-member of SACN in the region, cheaters! Free vacation place for them!)
5. Caracas, Venezuela (History, although I don't like their president now too much noise)
6. Andes, Chile (aaaw Inca Empire!)
7. oops I think thats it.

No where on this list.

Thats it I guess! Time to save up so i can travel it all!

Anybody want to go with me?

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