It's Haunting Me?

Why do I keep waking up at around 5AM??? I wake up at the same time the past few days and I'm thinking of the same thing. No its not that I'm waking up for work, thinking I should get ready for work, it's not that.

The fact is I already know what it is. I already have an idea what to do. How to tackle the problem, an idea how it may end or how it can be continued for as long as it wants to. It's just different when emotions are there. And when it's not just your emotions.

Sometimes life, you can never tell. Sometimes things, you never want. And very very sometimes things happen, so special, it means so much. Those few moments, so precious and you don't know how but want to make them normal. Because then when your special moments become normal, routine, regular, then the span of the happiness you feel will be more regulated, and not so spiked for special moments that are now and then that it'll make you so moody. Once a month this and every week that. Life can sometimes be so busy that just a few minutes you give to something can be like so hard to do. But sometimes like I say miracles do happen and you can give days or maybe three?

Take for example the sideline I'm doing, there are pro-bono and not, both are hard to do, but omg speaking of which, I'm outta here, I need to do those! chow!